6/20/2004, which is today, is finally the day that I came out to my father. I've been in the life for many years now and I've only told my friends and like 2 of my sisters. I was always scared to tell my father because I knew his views about Homosexuality, and it ain't that pretty. I decided that today would be the day. I just felt that this was the moment and I got this strange feeling that it was cool to say something about it.
Here it is after 6:15 a.m. in the morning & it's Father's Day, that I wanted to tell him that I'm a Lesbian. Well, I started it off by talking about "How do you feel about Gay Marriages" and it was basically an opinionated answer on how he felt that it was wrong & god made Adam & Eve not Adam & Steve.....you know the blah, blah, blah.
So, I disagreed and he asked me if I was gay, so by this time I'm feeling like "DAMN! He's stealing my moment," so I showed him my wrist with my braclet of the faithfully 6 colors and I told him what they meant. Then he asked me "so you like women," and I replied, "Yes, well that's the only sexuality side that I'm on." He looked confused because he feels that since I have a son that it's impossible.
I asked him, "If I wanted to Marry a woman, would he be a part of the ceremony," and he said "NO," which is cool because I already knew that and I would expect for him too, but it kinda of bothers me that he wouldn't want to attend or want to meet the woman that I'm romanically involved with either.
However, my father is a old fashion black southern MAN, so I can't expect for him to accept everything. My biggest fear was my father casting me out of his life. That's the 1 thing that I didn't want because he's all that I have besides my 3 sisters and my son. My mother died when I was 15 and if he was to leave out of my life it would hurt.
THANK GOD! It didn't happen. My father isn't crazy about it, but he said " he can't make me be anything nor change me, but if that's who I am then that's who I am." It was bascially a "WHATEVER" type of thing to him and it's cool because he's still in my life.
That was some Father's Day gift.
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