Where I met my partner?
She was my student - I was a college professor way back in the 90's. She was just one of the students in my class, never took notice of her though I found her cute - simply because I had a girlfriend then. One of her classmates saw me and my girlfriend on a date and the story about me in a gay relationship circulated in her class. She would kid me then, ask for my phone number through classmates and called me up one night after the semester was over. We talked til the wee hours of the morning.
How we fell in love
I fell in love with her the 1st time we had that phone talk. She was so assertive - she knew I had a girl then - but she would always make her presence known. She'd see me in the university; fetch me from classes, and the next thing we knew, we got totally inseparable. After her graduation, we moved in together. It was purely heaven living together as partners. We enjoyed each others' company - supported each other in our careers and our respective families. It was like nothing could come between us - not even my family and friends; not even her family and friends. I was a teacher by profession but it didn't matter to me then. I was just so proud of her and wanted everyone in the whole world to know that we are lovers - that we are a couple - that we are going to raise a family.
But, things took a different turn. She left - for reasons I never had the slightest clue before. It was purely devastation on my part - as in nothing could ever make me whole again. But I had to move on - - - I cannot let my family down again. I had to support them and give life another shot. I eventually got married; had 2 children and lived the "mainstreamed" life of a wife and a mother.
Then, she came back after 18 years - - - 18 long years after she left me, that was the only time that I came to know about the real reasons why she left. I am now married and can no longer be the same person I had been in her life. But I still love her - and she was able to prove to me that she didn't leave me for nothing. She left me because she wanted to make it "big" so when she claims me back, she can give me a better life. She still loves me . . . that, I do not doubt.
I cannot give her up once more - - - we have this very special kind of relationship that I guess no one can ever understand. Although it pains us both when we cannot be together whenever we want, we still derive strength from each other. She was and she will always be the one true love I'll have in my life. As to what could possibly happen in the near future, I have absolutely no idea.
We had been in love before - we are still in love now. We may have been separated and may have led separate lives for 18 long years - but we are still in love with each other, and to me, that is all that matters . . .
Advice
- love surpasses the tests of time and distance
- do not go looking for love - it will come to you even in the most unexpected circumstances
- with true love, one can never dictate which is morally right or wrong; love knows no moral boundaries - love is morality in itself
- there's always someone who is bound to get hurt in love. but look at the beauty of love - and feel in your heart where it hurts the most - weigh it against the goodness and the joy you feel.
- decide on whether you want to live a life of satisfaction and happiness or a life of propriety.
