I Never Imagined a Relationship With a Woman
With each new blog I felt I was getting to know more about this woman. I read her comments from friends and found she was very well liked and respected. I noticed she never left comments to other women that would give the impression she was a “Player”. She simply impressed me as a human being. Somewhere between reading blogs and looking at her pictures, I realized there was an attraction. What?? I can tell you, as a straight woman, I HAVE seen pictures of naked women and yes, in the privacy of my own home, all alone, I had watched porn and seen lesbian sex. Yet I never imagined me having a relationship with a woman. I had entertained the thought experimenting with a woman, but that was it. Relationship? No way. I can’t even tell you what made me decide to message her, I just did. A very simple message. “ Hi, I’m a friend of Amber’s and I just wanted you to know, I’ve read your blogs. I really enjoy them, as they are so insightful. I appreciate you taking the time to write them. They don’t go un-noticed”. That was it.I thought I’d never hear from her, or maybe, just get a simple thank you. She immediately messaged me back thanking me for encouraging her and our friendship started. It started innocent. As time went on, I soon realized I enjoyed getting her messages and emails. I have to say, she was so wise. She let me be the one to set the tone, as she never crossed that line. She knew I was straight and she wasn’t going to pressure me in any way. I was amazing myself.
I asked for her Phone Number
This is the repressed catholic good-girl, asking another woman she hadn’t met, for her phone number. Was I crazy? Was it turning 40 that sent me over the edge? Would I burn in hell for this? What if my family and friends found out? What would I say? I didn’t know those answers, I just knew I had to hear her voice. I don’t know what I was expecting, but it wasn’t that. Her voice was upbeat, soft and very soothing. I felt so at ease with her. Our conversations went from here and there, to every day. We talked about everything and anything. We found we had the same upbringing, she had been in the military, and I was an Army brat. She had been in the same type of relationship I had just come out of. Everything was amazing. The compatibility factor was overwhelming.Unfortunately, she was 1400 miles away. This was a mixed blessing. We could be ourselves without the worry of someone being on our doorstep the next day. We could take this friendship as far as we wanted with the safety of knowing, we weren’t next door to each other. Due to my lack of experience, I had a million questions, that we jokingly called my “Lesbian Myth” questions. I was clueless. I knew one thing, I was attracted to her, and was slowly falling in love with her. We soon decided that we would never know where this would end up, unless we met. We agreed on her coming here, as she’d never been to my state. I was so nervous I decided to buy the “Lesbian Karma Sutra” book. I can only say, SHOCK! I was now not only nervous, but now filled with the terror that I might not know how to satisfy her. What if it didn’t come naturally for me? I had never even kissed a woman, let alone slept with one. The excitement and anticipation was an emotional roller coaster ride.
